Ten things I hate about me.

1. I procrastinate a lot.
   If I had a dollar for each and every time I procrastinate, I will probably be a millionaire already. I have insurance claims that I should but have not mailed out from a month ago. I was supposed to start my assignment today but yet here I am doing this post (and the blog). And if you were one of the lucky few who saw my blog before, you would have known that this blog has been around since 2004. I have since deleted the two pathetic posts that say that my blog will be done soon.
   
   
2. I am extremely sarcastic.
   I hate that I show my love to others by being sarcastic. I think I have a very serious problem. The one thing my friends can take heart, with this problem I have, is that you are probably a very good friend, to me, if you had been a victim of my sarcasm.
   
   
3. I am too easily distracted.
   This happens to me every single time. I cannot seem to stay glued to the television for a soccer game. I cannot seem to study without taking a million television or messenger breaks. I can talk about a certain issue and talk about something else before someone has even made a comment. (As if to prove a point, I finished watching a show and had my shower before I finished this post.)
   
   
4. I cannot seem to sleep early.
   It is currently 05:11am and I am here wanting to finish this post. I am jealous that some of my friends have the ability to sleep at 11:00pm, which I can never seem to do. It pisses me off when I know I have to wake up early the next day for work or for school or for a job interview and yet I keep denying myself sleep.
   
   
5. I have a punctuality problem.
   I am late more often than not and I just want to apologize to the people who have been unfortunate enough to have waited for me before (lecturers included). This is a problem I am working on.
   
   
6. I am smart in all the wrong areas.
   I am really good in thinking of weird scenarios and practical jokes. I am really good in making up weird excuses that people actually believe. I am really good in thinking too much and too far ahead. I am really good in hurting people by saying things I know I do not really feel. For what uses do these "qualities" have, I really do not know.
   
   
7. I grow too attached to things and people.
   I have Christmas cards from my secondary school days that I have refused to throw out. I have textbooks from my poly days that I have refused to throw out. I have a very cute bolster from my childhood years that I have refused to stop using. I was nearly in tears during my basic military training passing out parade. I refuse to let go of people who wants nothing to do with me. Am I really a woman? (No I am not.)
   
   
8. I am so indecisive I scare myself sometimes.
   Sometimes I wonder if I have an inner Gollum (probably a female one) in me talking myself out of the decisions I make. I contradict and second guess myself very often and sometimes I seriously do not know what I actually want. I can stand in front of the Cheers fridge for a few minutes thinking what drink I should actually buy. I guess it sucks to be me. My friends get pissed off with me because I take very long in making simple decisions, which again I am very sorry for.
   
   
9. I have extremely gay tastes in music and television programs.
   I am actually very embarrassed to admit that I actually watch shows like Gossip Girl or Privileged and listen to songs like Rihanna's "Take A Bow" and Beyoncé's "If I Were A Boy". I do not understand why I like it but the reason is definitely not because I am gay. Just to be clear, I also love shows like Heroes and Chuck and I do listen to stuff other than those two. Maybe I just have a wide tolerance for entertainment. (By the way, the shows listed above are really good.)
   
   
   
10. I joke too much to the extent that people seldom take me seriously.
    This is a trait that I have been trying to tone down for years but I seriously cannot succeed. I go into new surroundings promising to keep a low profile and not to act like a fool too much but my instincts always get the better of me. I went into MDIS thinking I want to keep quiet and just study real hard for two and a half years, due to past labels as the class clown or work clown, but I think my friends in MDIS have stopped taking me seriously as well.

P.S. This list is in the order of the shortest description of the thing I hate about me to the longest. I have no idea why I listed it in this order but after reading this list, you should know that I am weird like that. After completing this list, I realized a number 11 which is I am actually very "anal" about people making a mess of my stuff and a number 12 that is I am like a child who refuses to grow up. Who still wants to be my friend?